- Current Location:Office
- Current Mood: accomplished
- Current Music:Sandy Sandhoro - Tak Pernah Padam
Uh-huh. As the title suggested, I failed.
From all of the significant milestones, I managed to meet all of them, but one, and the most significant one: Story Submission on September 25th!
And the thing is, I even tried to meet the deadline by pulling two all nighters in a row, which was unheard of for me and really, really took a toll on me, and yet, I still couldn't meet the deadline! Cue frustrated shrieks and hairpulls.
My only explanation to this failure is not only my inability to properly plan the writing, but also to curb my writing. I found that, despite my worries, the number of words was not a problem, the problem was the story itself.
I might have made the basic draft, but when I started to develop the scenes, they ended up taking more words and details that I didn't expect. When I thought I could meet the deadline, when my work gave me enough leeway for my muse to start flowing and time for me to start writing, I found out that there were many things that couldn't be simplified or erased from the story! The story pretty much wrote itself!
Basically, few minutes until the deadline, coming to this realization, I gave up, I threw the towel. The perfectionist in me (too bad it went along with procrastinator) refused to give less than solid story. Okay, I might allow some grammar mistakes or overlook some details, but plot or story? Nope, not gonna give that up. So yeah, I decided to simply let go, as much as I want to cry for not succeeding.
However, the fandom and the pairing itself is rare, so even if I end up finishing the story, I'm not confident enough to post it on my own so I ask the mod that I can participate again next year with the same story, and maybe, I could also try another pairing. Yeah, what the heck am I thinking, right? I think I'll keep trying until I succeed.
So, my current task: finishing and polishing the story until it shines, baby!
- Current Location:Cikarang
- Current Mood: morose
- Current Music:Martina McBride - My Valentine
I was introduced to the story through the anime first, then I realized that the story came from novels instead of manga and the series itself is still ongoing. Because it was based on the novels my only knowledge is limited to the anime and the summary of the novels. So far, what disappoints me is how Ryuuki, the emperor, who seems to show much promise and is given a foreshadowing that his rule is going to be a golden age, suddenly gets trampled on by everyone. He's not exactly the main character, Shuurei is, but it's rather a letdown.
- Current Location:Cikarang
- Current Mood: silly
- Current Music:George Michael - I Can't Make You Love Me
Am I crazy or what? I signed up for het_bigbang
Anyway, the timeline would be like this:
Author Sign Ups - May 1st to June 1st
Artist/Cheerleading/Beta Sign ups - May 1st until the end
Writer's Optional Checkpoint - July 15th
Writer's Mandatory Checkpoint - August 15th
Artist Claiming - August 20th
Art and Fics Due - September 25th
Debut Date (DD) - September 30th
- Current Location:Cikarang
- Current Mood: crazy
- Current Music:Queen - Don't Stop Me Now
Well, I have taken this test quite a long time ago, but then teruame and atemu_mana posted their results in their respective LJ, so I decided to take it again, whether anything changes.
- Current Location:Cikarang
- Current Mood: sleepy
- Current Music:Eminem ft. Rihanna - Love the Way You Lie
It's been... what, one, two months from the last chapter and from each chapters release. So excuse me, if my mind couldn't catch up with the sudden twist in this chapter.
Okay, I could get the killings of the purebloods, but killing your own and I'd say, reliable underling??!! What the hell, Kuran! And then left with such cryptic words. Really...
Which means, I have to wait for his explanation....and that might not come anytime soon. Can't a pureblood, especially an ancestor, not scheming for once?
And this makes me wonder whether to integrate the new developments into my VK fics, or just keep it the way it is by simply reducing the allusions towards the conditions after whatever Kuran is planning to do.
And I just realize I wrote of Kaname like I wrote about him in Zero or Misaki's point of view... Sheesh.
Oh well. I guess I have to reread the latest chapters of VK to get clearer picture of what Kaname might be planning, so far that Aidou-sama let him do as he wished. May it be not in vain.
Anyway, Wakaba is really acting like Yuuki for Zero, don't you think? Looking after the guy who has no interest in being looked after. Not really against of the pairing, if somehow the author sort of paired them up. Wakaba is the only one aside from the girls in the Academy who's able to put up with Zero and she's also aware of the vampires. She seems to be put in Yuuki's shoes before her awakening. Though she must quickly shed any naivety that all vampires are like that of the Academy.
- Current Location:Bandung
- Current Music:Far East Movement - Rocketeer
Word Count: 7,695
Characters/Pairings: Zero, Misaki, Yagari, and Esterhazy family
Warning: Abundance of OC, which was rather inevitable, considering the setting. The appearance of vengeful!scheming!powerful!Zero. Esterhazy is a real life figure in Hungary, and I took the liberty of borrowing the family to my story. I hope no one minds.
Notes: Unbetaed for now. Looking for beta reader!
Previous chapters: Prologue, Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4
( Chapter 5Collapse )
- Current Location:home sweet home
- Current Mood: lazy
- Current Music:99ers Top 40 Chart
Finally, after six months or so, I got myself employed in a manufacturing company in Cikarang. The company name is Mattel. Does the name ring a bell? If not, then does Barbie ring any bells?
Yup. Mattel is an American company that produces toys, which one of their products is the dolls known as Barbie. It was the first job that I got to job offer. (FYI, most recruitments has several stages to pass before you got to be hired or offered a job. Most jobs I applied for failed in the middle, usually interview stages). While at the same time, I was also being processed for other jobs, one National telecomunication company (and another one, which I found out later) and one European oil&gas company.
Based on prestige and salary, the other two are more interesting than Mattel, not to mention I'd be placed in a big city, instead of industrial city like Cikarang. The only difference was that I was already qualified for hire to Mattel, while the other two, I wasn't. I intended to take a risk at first, but after consulting my father and my aunt
who had better insight than me regarding career choices and their future, told me that Mattel was the best first company to work for mainly due its culture. Eventually I made my choice on Mattel, as reluctant as I was, and thus I started working at Mattel on May 24, 2010.
Cikarang is pretty far from home (Bandung), it's about a two-hours or less bus ride away. So I have to rent a place nearby and move out from my home for the very first time. I rent a room with a bathroom, a bed, a desk with a chair and a cupboard. It's a bit pricey than most rented rooms because the place is rather strategic and equipped with Air Conditioner. When I brought my things, I was surprised to realize how few my belongings were, especially my clothes XDD
Interestingly, for someone who never lived on her own, unlike most of my university friends who mostly came from other cities, I have little difficulty in adapting. I started doing domestic chores that I didn't need to do back at home, from washing my clothes to cooking. I found myself rather unfazed to this change of living situation, because I'm just the type who goes with the flow and take things easy, which in hindsight, I think it's good thing, which means less one problem to worry about.
Mattel has interesting work culture, I have to say. The first thing that I noticed was the lack of uniform. The only uniform we have is a blouse/chemise that's obligatory on every Mondays, and we can wear jeans to match it with. While on other days, we're free to wear casual clothes, including t-shirts. It feels like university all over again. The people I work with are also open and friendly, including the higher ups. In here, there's no clear barrier between the subordinates and the supervisor.
I can ask not only my direct superior but also my superior's superior if I want to. We're also encouraged to come to them when we're stuck or in need of advice.They are also no less involved in the operations matters, helping us out or checking us for problems. There's no time for being shy or lazy here due to the dynamic nature of our work. Everything can and is changing quickly, we must be able to keep up with those changes, that's why communication (such as meetings) become important and my position makes me right in the middle of it.
Scary? That'd be an understatement. It's horrifying.
It's a great challenge for me who tends to avoid responsibility, who tends to mind my own business, who tends to wait for directions to actually to take charge, to take initiative. So most of the obstacles as I started working comes from me, instead from others. I have to overcome my fear of failure, of doing mistakes, I have to overcome my reluctance to work with others. And well... do you know how forgetful I am? Not only I have to remember all the stuff that's my responsibility, I also have to remind others for their responsibility.
My position in Mattel is as Product Engineer whose main responsibility to simply put is to develop toys and to do that I have to coordinate with other team members from different roles and positions where
I'm the one who acts as the coordinator. Not only I have to work with (much) older people in equal standing as team members, I found out that I also have subordinates. Imagine my surprise (and my anxiety).
Based on the offer, I had to go through three-months probation before I became permanent employee, and even though I've passed that period, I still feel like a fool at times, kept doing rookie mistakes. However, the job itself is rewarding, I learn about myself more, I make friends, and most of all I'm pushed to my limits. I must admit that it gets stressful at times, especially when things don't go smoothly, but it happens. So far, I only freaked out once. Haha ^^;; In times like this I realize my shortcomings clearly, that I'm still not mature enough compared to others. Knowing this, sometimes I feels really lacking.
Well, I'll just do my best! Go me! :D
Lemme hear about you now then.
- Current Location:Jakarta
- Current Mood: anxious
- Current Music:S Club 7 - Never Had a Dream Come True
So, lilac_ayame, your LiveJournal reveals...
You are... 5% unique (blame, for example, your interest in yapha), 17% peculiar, 49% interesting, 15% normal and 15% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are normal. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are keen to please. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is simplistic.
Your overall weirdness is: 11
(The average level of weirdness is: 28.
You are weirder than 19% of other LJers.)
Find out what your weirdness level is!
- Current Location:office
- Current Mood: silly
- Current Music:Linkin Park - Blackbird
BTW, the text I wrote down was the prologue of Shades of Grey. Maybe I must try with bigger sample size. (Dang, my work influenced me!). Another update: Got Dan Brown again for second chapter.
Adding more samples
First chapter of Shades of Grey:
Bigger sample size, and this is what I get?
*rolls on the floor laughing*
How the heck they can come up with this? Or am I such an inconsistent writer?
I might my other works aside of Shades of Grey, but I got the feeling that I will get more authors and most likely the ones I recognize, as I do recognize and read the books of all of the authors my result came up with.
- Current Location:on my desk
- Current Mood: surprised
- Current Music:Astrid - Tentang Rasa